Happy New Year "Xin Nian Kuai Le"I missed 2008 and I didn't want to say goodbye yet. I had a wonderful time, I learned many things and it was the year when I realized my dream, to visit and work in another country. I had my share of tough times and was in different crossroads where I had to choose the road which led to uncertainties. Many things happened and for some I found the reason why they said, for others things I'm still trying to understand.
Last night, I had a wonderful time with my students since they were having a New Year's eve party. But when I got back to my room, thinking about the traditions at home, I just couldn't help myself from feeling so homesick. I sent some sms messages to all my friends and it was so ironic because I was wishing them a Happy New Year and I was not in a happy state at all. I imagined all the scenes during new year at home, with everyone around, my brothers and sister with their kids, my mother, my relatives and friends. We used to watch the fireworks display together. One time my brother and I went to the roof of our house and we just stayed there and watched the starry nights and talked about our dreams for the family. I really missed home and if only tears could bring me home then I was transported back to the Philippines in the middle of the night. I sometimes hate myself for being too strong and for being too weak. I could be very strong but sometimes I can be very weak and I'm not too good in controlling my emotion. Even if I tell myself not to cry, something deep inside me would not listen. Something which the brain couldn't control. I remember our late CEO, Mr. Richard Woodhead, (RIP) he always shared this saying to us, "Tough times don't last but tough people do." He even told me that I was tough because I never raised my voice when he was shouting at me during the final interview and during the phone simulation. What he didn't realize was, I almost lost my self control and it was only a matter of second when I changed my mind or I could have thrown something in his face.
In this new year I am wishing that there would be more exciting things that would come in spite of the financial problem that the world is facing. I'm greatly affected with this since US dollar is becoming weaker. I don't know what would happen if it would continue to go down. I think I would not be able to continue my job here in China. Well, it's still too early to say, I don't want to worry too much about things in the future since most of the time they won't happen. I'll just embrace the future with an open heart and believe that things will be good for everyone I love, my friends and my family. Since the future is so uncertain then I'll just make the most of what I have, which is the present.
Last night, I had a wonderful time with my students since they were having a New Year's eve party. But when I got back to my room, thinking about the traditions at home, I just couldn't help myself from feeling so homesick. I sent some sms messages to all my friends and it was so ironic because I was wishing them a Happy New Year and I was not in a happy state at all. I imagined all the scenes during new year at home, with everyone around, my brothers and sister with their kids, my mother, my relatives and friends. We used to watch the fireworks display together. One time my brother and I went to the roof of our house and we just stayed there and watched the starry nights and talked about our dreams for the family. I really missed home and if only tears could bring me home then I was transported back to the Philippines in the middle of the night. I sometimes hate myself for being too strong and for being too weak. I could be very strong but sometimes I can be very weak and I'm not too good in controlling my emotion. Even if I tell myself not to cry, something deep inside me would not listen. Something which the brain couldn't control. I remember our late CEO, Mr. Richard Woodhead, (RIP) he always shared this saying to us, "Tough times don't last but tough people do." He even told me that I was tough because I never raised my voice when he was shouting at me during the final interview and during the phone simulation. What he didn't realize was, I almost lost my self control and it was only a matter of second when I changed my mind or I could have thrown something in his face.
In this new year I am wishing that there would be more exciting things that would come in spite of the financial problem that the world is facing. I'm greatly affected with this since US dollar is becoming weaker. I don't know what would happen if it would continue to go down. I think I would not be able to continue my job here in China. Well, it's still too early to say, I don't want to worry too much about things in the future since most of the time they won't happen. I'll just embrace the future with an open heart and believe that things will be good for everyone I love, my friends and my family. Since the future is so uncertain then I'll just make the most of what I have, which is the present.
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