I'm torn between going to China or staying with my job here in Voiceville. I've been in this company for for more than a year, and always been dedicated with my job. I like what I'm doing although sometimes I feel the pressure and the boredom. It's not easy to handle people and sometimes just listen their pleas but couldn't do anything...torn between admin and agents... I don't want to see anyone from my team go. I never wanted to fire anyone, but here in Voiceville I did it more than once. Whether I liked it or not I had to do it. I felt bad when one of the agents have to say goodbye...I know that they feel it's a failure on their part, but I don't see them as failure..I just think that it's a chance for them to move forward try something great. Now, I'm into Marketing Voiceville again and honestly I find it hard to get accounts for the company. I've tried every possible way I can. I tried sending mails to company owners, directors, CEO, phone them, and even tried spamming. Well, I know that's cheap, but I just hope and pray that I would find someone open minded enough to try the outourcing business.
Many people will just say " get lost, kiss my ass, F*** off, go to hell or whatever swearing words they can think of." So, I had to be tough, i was trained to be... and anyway English is not my first Lanaguage so I just have to think that their language is not intended for me..but sometimes I fell guilty for disturbing people, and get lots of "NO thanks, we're NOT INTERESTED". I may be strong but not all the time. I have my limits too. I don't want to this forever. I miss being in chool, teaching kids, eating together with them, telling them good stories, and the most important thing is seeing them move to the next level. I JUST LOVE TEACHING.... So what I did was, I went to an agency and it happen in need of 20 teachers for China. I am excited since I really wanted to teach. I'm also thinking about my job here in Voiceville. Presently I'm also enrolled with my MA at Cebu Normal University. Hopefully this will be my last sem with my Masters Degree. Then if I want it I could have my comprehensive exam this coming October, 2007. If i'll be lucky enough to pass then I could start writing my thesis. I have a big decision in my life to try some thing I haven't done before. I know this is a risk, but I'll see it as an adventure. I'm so confused...totally confused. Someone promised me that he could help me get a teaching job in China. He's also a university teacher in China. Should I resign from my present job and take a teaching job in China? If I'll do I have to drop my subjects in MA. WOw...never been so confused in my life. I have made a promise to someone, though he might think that I'm not serious with it, but honestly I am. I know he thinks that I'm lying, but I'm not. Is it bad to try something new? Or am I just stupid? I don't know. I just want to have some space and time.
ate angel..! wow...grabeh na jud omong pagka addict sa blog..hehe...daghana nimu blog woi..every hour ka mag himu noh?? hehe joke...bitaw te, ok raman nako, i had my mistakes, kibaw man ko ana, it makes me think sayanga oi,if only..wala sad ko cguro ka focus sa hates too o kay at this time in turmoil kaayo akong lyp, bisag ga ngisi2x ra ko..hehe i have sooo many problems haha yaw saba te ha...but katong gi ingnan ko na tawagan lang ko ni kristine, that was the end, it hit my head hard and my ego that i was a failure and that was my only chance, but after a long sleep didto ilawm sa empty cubicles and after lunch with jerry, i soon realized that i made mistakes and there was no turning back, bisag na fail ko, it gave me a lesson to value everything and that naa ra jud na nag depend sa akong choices and decisions i made, i am the kind of person who i acknowledge my own mistakes and i stand corrected, but then again, i am, and still is, in my lowest point in my lyp, but just thinkin na terminate ko, but hey, papadayonon jud diay kog skwela, it'd not for me lang jud...i wont think anymore of what if's and sayanga..since i know i still have the chance to go back to school and i'll grab it..and tanan nakong na learn about sa real life ninyo dha tanan makes me stronger as a person and it made me more determined na humanon akong studies kay mao jud ni sign na pabalikon jud kog skwela...i applied, i trained and got terminated ;) but then again there's always the bright side, i'll go to school again, and from voiceville, it not the job that was important, it was the values i learned from all of you guys there, haha..bata pa man jud ko te, walay alamag sa world or sa tinuod na kinabuhi, i had my share of problems but cant handle them..now i can say, na i have a direction in life na..thanks for the words of wisdom te and for belivin in me, since often times, i dont even believe in myself..but knowin that there's still more to life and that some people believe that i can be what i want to be, it makes me stronger as i live by each day, whatever comes and happens to me..thank you so much te...keep bloggin!
ReplyDeleteHey... Ms Angelita... you don't have to be confused .... don't you know that your heart is the most accurate device to determine or when picking choices... you just have to trust that heart... congratulations you have long roll of scrolls now .... uh I mean blogs .... and also ... don't get caught if you promised to someone... nothing is constant... and that person will surely understand you... remember ... we have millions of opportunities ... but each one of them comes in a rare single chance... there's no thing such as a duplicate opportunity...one and rare....
ReplyDeleteDo well...